Bridge of sigh

Sighing right by the bridge
My mission was completed
All talks were well succeeded
People greet me with honours.

But life before now was cruel
I am a fool of my own mirror
Deep down I feel sour
Those hours of emptied life.

Dukkha and anatta
Chiva, when I have cried
Till tears dried inside my eyes
But tried to smile to the crowd

Living my life to excess
Stressed my soul in and out
Till the day I was about
Have to leave this body alive

Haunting me until now
When I am about to fight
The tears in the back of my eyes
Remind me of the failure

That fame is empty without me
Those tasks will be taken
Those money will be spend
Those hidden treasure will disappear

When I was no longer me
My parent who I see in tears
My body looked peculiar
My fear reached its new high.

The pain cannot be cured
My pure soul was burnt alive
Though reborn after it died
I can’t uncry those tears.

It’s absorbed into my blood
And flush up when I gear
Towards a new height that I fear
My tear of being buried alive.


Photo Filter

New floral filter on App Looks
It took pictures so pretty
That’s only in my fantasies,
The real me looks nothing like it’s shown.
Today I feel so exhausted
I paused to play with deceiver
And it lies that I am young forever
What matter was a girl hidden inside
Wrinkles and dark circles around eyes
Freckles got from sunshine every morning
Tears of joy, marks from smile and frowning
Causing this poor thing to get old.
Is it matter how she looks like
If she’s nice and kind as ever.
Some say that it does not matter
So please smile to her when we see.
Baby days so frequent at the peak,
People seek and hide smiling
At forty life got interesting,
But smiling was something a bit rare,
As it seems hidden with what’s inside.
So people don’t smile frequently
Therein hidden unsung story
So pity most are not to be told
To people around from outside
And all kinds of those stranger
Busy life goes by forever
The closer circle was so small.
Till one day the muscles were numb
One only feel handsome on selfie
An unpurposeful smile becomes cheesy
Whilst it used to be best medicine.